Hi the timing and the date is fucked up, really. Timecheck? 3:01, 29th March. Insomnia again, as usual I can't sleep. Really what's going on with me? Maybe I will be sleeping, hopefully after getting this posted.
Tonight was harsh, that's it. That is the right word to describe it. Sometimes, I wish that I am this girl who doesn't care, but I am this girl who always care about something I loved most. Wish that I'm this girl who wouldn't get her expectations up, reality? It is vice versa. It's compulsory for a girl to think, think and think and think which eventually equals to over-thinking. That is one thing I hate most in this presence. But, nah writing this doesn't makes me give up or lose hope on something that I have always wanted. I certainly have to find a way to settle and get things changing and basically, first thing first is not to expect. I will stop it because expectations > disappointment > rejection > argument > bad mood/tantrum > cry. (Understand the arrows) I have never like that particular cycle.
I love the feeling after getting to blog all my worries and feelings, to lighten the burden of keepin negative thoughts in my mind. As I write a post, I am letting things out bit by bit . Sharing, to be specific.
Three posts of march entries back-to-back, enjoy the words.
