Even at writing this, I couldn't hold up my tears. So this post is gonna be a bit emotional, I guess?

Yesterday was my mother's 40th birthday, and which I was the first person to come up to her, in my pajamas with her present. There she was on the bed, with her arms welcoming me for a warm hug & a kiss. How I wish I could do something more to get that smile permanently on her face. But, no one is perfect. Could only meet her up after work, in the bus ride to my aunt's house... I was sitting opposite her in the bus. I was busy watching my movie in my iphone and suddenly, I looked up to my mom, without her noticing, and my eyes were watery. For that particular moment, i was speechless. This feeling, I couldn't even describe it. I couldn't! Maybe............i don't know. It was her face expression, her face........ Felt like something was not right. But I don't know.

I don't know. Think I should sleep it off. But mom, I love you mom. Happy 40th :')