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#79
March 2, 2013 || 12:45 PM
I did it. Because I don't want to feel like shit anymore. Because I don't want to be in a situation where I'll be the one hurting all the time, it's not fair. He puts me thru all this he didn't feel how I felt nvm I'm strong enough to pull this through eventho it will kill me day by day I'll just live through it. I've gone through shits I bet this will just be the same or worst. Let me be by myself and survive my life alone and hopefully one day I'll be heartless. Because I don't want to feel like shit or think like one, I'm done. Done with everything. He have his life and I have mine to move on. Everyday I will hope that I wouldn't go through this path but I am on it but its okay rather than I witness to their chemistry together and him waning to get that thing and like be proud that he's with her ok nvm. I've always been at fault from the start so I'll end this shit by myself. And when next week comes by, whatever it is I'm not his anymore. I'm just by myself and I can live through this. I've gone through almost anything in my life, this is nothing. Losing someone, nothing new to me. I'll just have to clear all these memories photos and everything and never contact again. Whatever he did, he hurt me. Whatever he will do in the future I hope I won't get hurt again. It's ok to be hurt I'll just pull through it or let it eat myself up slowly because I don't want to care and never will I care. I will regret this but I don't want care and know any of the shit, I don't want to be the one having to go through shit while the other sits and watch everything goes by just because I don't do the same thing as he is doing! Urgh it was never fair I was the one having to go through it over and over and over again. I don't care, it's ok eka. You go through shit you'd be able to pull through this. I'll be fine I guess, I will. Here it is, my ruin Saturday. Welcome back to the actual myself. I will pull through this even though I regret but nvm he has to know how I feel and I don't care what he is doing if he choose that one then I hope he'll be happy and I'll just wait for someone hahaha or no, live my life independently. I'll be fine with dining along or with friends instead of whoever, watching movies or whatever fuck I don't want to do this but nvm it's ok eka it's ok.