I really wish I could call you up and just talk to you and let out what I feel inside which is most probably killing me this moment. I'm regretting this moment right now and I want to go home I really want to go home and not to be here crying.
But ayah............I still wish you're here. So I don't feel like shit. So that I wouldn't cry at 1:49 in the morning. Hoping it would be a good night but this is what I get when I sacrifice my time who doesn't appreciate me urgh idk idk what is going on Idk what to do, why do I feel this way I don't want to cry and be strong but I just cant. I'm having camp later and I feel like this. Doesn't help at all. DOES NOT HELP AT ALL. Ayah I wish I could call you and I could flag a camp and go to your house to sleep for the night.
Why don't I deserve some good time? Why do I get this instead? When I'm going off tmr and he didn't even like appreciate me at all then why do I come here for!!!!!!!! I don't knw why I sacrifice whatever I have for his kind of person, i don't know must be blinded by love. When he didn't bother anything at all. Not once I guess. I don't know who to talk to because I'm like alone I want to go home now, I cannot take it anymore.
