Been not eating so much, i tried to control and then when i asked this is what i get.... Hurtful huh. Maybe i am not the skinny person you know but at least.. urgh. I swear i do not want this to get in my head but to get that from the person who you knew who has been backing you up, that sucks. Sucks. There goes tonight, here goes the insecure girl again and again. I mean obviously you don't know i've been trying to look good or whatever, but it is okay at least i know that i have been trying to not eat very much so i won't look ugly when i walk beside you. It's okay eka, everything will be fine hopefully................ This sucks alot. But life is never fair. Things won't turn out the way you want right? Who knows, people change everything changes who knows. Who knows love was so cruel. Come on eka, i have gotta pull myself together again and not depend on other people or whatever shit. Seriously, i don't know. Again. 

Or maybe i should just try to sleep it off........which will not happen. But who cares.