@ 1:36AM of Saturday 

The last thing I want to do now is.........break down. Let's see how much longer I could hold on. I couldn't talk to my man like I always do now because he serving the country during the day but sleeping right away as early as 9.30. And at this miserable timing I just had to stumble upon my sadness again which I know will put me nowhere but tearing apart and texting him like a lot of text msges saying that I wish he was here urgh. Yup I did that like 20 secs ago before I came here writing. But all I could do is write. This is best way for me to let it all out. I want to go out tmr urgh but..........baby I really wish you're here 😕 I guess at this moment all I need is strength to stand on both my feet. And I promise I will wait. I will go through this miserable moments. I will. I  will wait. If this is what I have to do to prove my love. I will. Sounds cheesy huh? But try being in my shoes now. Cause it hurts so bad and I hate this.