Pathetically, I should not feel this way. I hate this stupid emotional feelings I wished I could walk down the streets and dump it into the trash bins and walk away forever, it's not cool dealing with this kind of emotional shit. I freaking hate it. 

But it left me no choice, I am girl so I have to deal with it. Just the same as, if you deal with fire you get hurt, first degree/second degree & etc. Tiny little things could be a problem. Sucks huh? And now that I'm like on Instagram I only found that the last time he posted our photo was like 9 weeks. Dude I have your pic like everywhere urgh fck this shit. What does this mean? Like now you're a man and you want to find and attract other girls because you're whatever you think you are. Fucking dumb. The fuck. If you're gonna say to I don't have time to even like post out photos, fucking bullshit because the last time I checked you posted two on Saturday while you're at a kenduri? How's that? How free were you? Hahahaha hmmmmmmmmmmm yeah. I hate this feeling. I want to run away. I shouldn't have look at it. It was stupid, dumb thing I know. Damn it. Now I have to deal with stupid emotions. 

ON A FREAKING MONDAY BLUES