The weather tonight really defines how i am feeling right now, humid = Angsty. I feel so suffocated having those stupid little problem lingering around. I hate it how people can be so stuck up and end up dragging it into a bigger problem when it is just a small matter where one need to just apologies. Why is it so hard? And now that aunties have got themselves involved just because of one self who couldn't mirror her mistakes and all she wanted to do was to tell people she's right when she is wrong. I hate it when my mom have to be the one hearing all of this and take sides. Or maybe she didn't. Or she has to. What the hell. I hate the tension, the stupid drama and all the secrecy going on. Why can't people just learn to let go of this small problem which we are not even supposed to be involved? Why can't they just settle between themselves, why must they tell people about it and make people make rumors? Isn't that a bad thing? Rumors..... This is so Malay. I feel like pulling my mom out of this shit, but I know things will get back especially when I'm mad urgh, even right now I am mad. Mad about this stupid things which aren't supposed to be our business and now that my aunties know bout it and.....urgh. WHY CAN'T FAMILIES HANDLE THEIR OWN PROBLEMS? WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST PUT YOUR EGO ASIDE AND SAY SORRY, ANYONE?!?!???? 

But as high as the frog decided to jump, in the end it will eventually hit the ground.

Because this drama is so annoying. And typical. And I hate it.

I HATE IT 

I know how it feels. To either be at fault or vice versa. Both hurts. No one gains anything but hatred, anger, selfishness & all the negative things that I cant think of right now. But shouldn't a family be happy? Even if one have problem, solve it among your family members, don't drag my mom into it because once the aunties knows, and knowin it came out from one side's mouth, things will really get ugly. If this is a small matter, why must you spread it? Don't you realise that you're eventually dragging this whole thing? You know, sometimes in life we have to suck up everything. Ego, selfishness, everything. Because if you respect someone and no respect was given, I don't think it is ever fair. Life was never fair but they didn't say it couldn't get any easier. As I grow up, I take life lessons and learn it from it. The advises I got, I filter it thru. I don't like to take sides, especially in a family. But the truth have to be known or see, otherwise the good ones will suffer will the bad ones are dancing in the rain.