I am still awake for another reason.......

This might be emotional but this is truly how I feel right now and here's the best place to rant it out, have always been the place. 

Three years ago on this very date itself, I lost my dearly beloved dad. This was the hardest life hurdles that I had to go through. I could go through any obstacles with him around, cause he'd be my listening ear, my advisor my best friend, my enemy, my everything. He would still say "I still miss ibu" even after years of the divorce while we are exchanging stories. I love how he would opened up to me. There's so many golden moments with my dad but it would be amazing to have him here, still with me/us. 

I can say I miss him everyday. Words are too cheesy aren't they? But I would make full use if I were given a day to spend with him. We could go shopping, we could hold hands, we could eat Maggie during midnight, watch soccer, listen to MJ12 together. Anything there's so much to do, so much daddy. 

One of the most memorable moment that I had (when i was a kid) with my dad was when my dad would fan me to sleep with newspaper in his hands so that I could go to sleep comfortably without sweating/complaining. After two weeks, he got me a fan. His determination to make me feel comfortable even at its worst. Now, who would replace that? 

There were so many life lesson that he showed me, that only after he left I could figure out what it is. 

I just hope I could sleep, it off.