7/2 @ 2:24pm

Alone on bed at this hour? Doing nothing but just little something which starts it allllllllllllllll these shitty feelings/thinking

Uh huh let it go so here's how I feel and I don't care who reads upon this but I know at least I will feel better/good at the end of this post so to hell with judgements or anything but if this is life and this is reality whereby karma will get to me soon shit then I wouldn't be sure if I'm even bothered to go through shits again in a relationship. To me, for this rs whch has been going on for years with my other half, karma a fuckin bitch man and it has no ending but there was a point where tears meant nothin and fighting means nothing staying means nothing hmmmm chill I'm just saying bro cause at the end of the day if shits gonna happen before anyone leave, I'll personally chao first at least it hurts less but afterall I'm still a woman/girl or wtv la. This negativity got to sht up and let me sleep. Even nothing is going on, I believe so, I'm sure I'll be fine again once he's up and assure me but you know girls are being girls ya~ 

Tired. Sleepy. And got to be discipline for work already. Too much. So here's to tonight, I'm fine just that overthinking does that to me but I'm just fine hahahaha I know I'll wake up in the morning feeling nooooothing. 

Nonetheless it's my month, everything seems so fine (for sometime cause of my job shitts zzzzz) besides that everything's fine especially when I'm home w my mom and everyone, hehe family time is the best and February has beeeeeeeen fucking awesome! 

Definitely it'll be more fun when the day comes............. HEHE

Goodnight x